Tuesday, January 6, 2009

should i or shouldnt i

I read somewhere that the real reason behind why everyone says " I have never met anyone else like you" or "I have never felt this way about anyone", is precisely because of that. Every person is different, from their physical DNA, to their personality, to their inner selves. I have been in a number of serious relationships, four , not counting my present one. Each one held its promise of a cherished love, a shared lifetime, a future of us. And each one fell and broke apart because of various circumstance such as cheating, different life goals, "growing apart", etc. If you have been in one, you know.

I feel that all my relationships, whether they ended good or bad, taught me life lessons such as:

Be passionate.
Be understanding.
Never compromise your values, but learn to compromise everywhere.
Listen.
Hugging is always good.
Be flexible.
Your way IS sometimes the best way.
Never lose yourself.
Live your life.

Which brings me roundaboutedly to my point: moving in. Its only been three months, three wonderful and amazing months. Moving in was mutually agreed upon, and happily awaited by us. He has no problem with it, and I dont ....for the most part. You see, the last time I moved in with someone, it ended up with my sanity in question, my fleeing to San Diego, and literally broken in every way, heartwise, bank-wise, faith-wise.

Should I wait for another year...should I move in as planned?...should I...should I....should I??

updates coming soon...

1 comments:

I Smile 2 Much said...

Only you know best what you want and what's best for you. And like you said (& I agree)~ "never lose yourself"

I think thats SO important~

I wish you all the best..... and looking forward to more updates from you~

*smiles, luv*